I just saw some poor guy on tv who'd lost his job. he has, among other responsibilities, a disabled child. that is really rough. I know many people are in similar positions and I really wish them well with getting a new job and being able to continue helping their families. of course, he was also concerned about what to do for christmas.
I will share a little secret I remember from my childhood... kids will ask for EVERYTHING because they have no clue how much stuff costs. however, most kids don't expect to get most of that stuff. they just want to get something off ther 30 page list. maybe 3-4 somethings, but certainly not everything (unless you have spoiled them to an insane degree or unless you are so rich you really can buy anything they want).
if you get the paper, save the colored funny pages (or get someone to do this for you). this makes great gift wrap, especially for kid's stuff. look at your junk mail, those cards that fall out of magazines... anything... cut out cute images and use these to make decorations for packages. sometimes you can get free gift tags here and there, but if you don't, use plain paper and these decorative objects to make your own. doing this allows you to cheaply wrap more packages. and that, in turn, makes it economically feasible to wrap you kid's presents in ways that make it look like the most packages. kids LOVE to unwrap stuff. so, wrap up as many as you can, even stocking stuffers, in this cost effective manner.
if you make cookies right before christmas wrap these up! you can use one of your resealable bowls since, if it's your own kids, you'll get these back. if you're giving them as gifts, you can get little containers fairly cheaply.
if your child has a doll and you can sew, make some outfits. if the child doesn't sleep with the doll, you might dress her in the new outfit and put her under the tree (unwrapped) as a surprise from santa.
remember, your children love you. just do your best... try to think of fun activities to add to christmas fun. also, be on the lookout for bargains! :)
good luck and happy holidays. :)
Sunday, November 29, 2009
last car payment!
I made my last car payment yesterday. it was just a partial payment, so it was actually the smallest payment i've ever made.
before daddy had his stroke, I had my car almost paid off... I am glad he was able to know that because he was really worried about my finances.
my family kind of thinks I have the financial skills of a particularly frivolous two-year-old. this isn't true, but I have been in bad situations financially before. and then other things happened that made things look worse.
once, when I was out of town, my father kept getting calls that made him think my car was like five payments behind. actually, that was totally wrong, but he found a very misleading bill (and tore off the part that showed that i'd made three recent payments) and showed that to my sister. she called and chewed me out before it occurred to her that, duh, most of what they sent was missing (i have no idea why my father tore off what he did... I don't think he realized he threw out the most important part) so who could tell anything. but my sister had him convinced he could lose his house. yeah, our house is worth $3000 (eyeroll) which is what my car payoff was at that time. oh, and p.s. ONLY my name was on the loan and my name wasn't on his house, so... worse case scenario: they'd take the CAR.
also, I was getting some telemarketer calls mixed in... I didn't owe those people a cent, but it added to the confusion. it kind of pissed me off about my car loan people because there was no reason for them to harrass him like that.
then there was some credit card telemarketing going on and, as I told him over and over, it wasn't even saying anyone owed them money. it was trying to get us to apply for their card. but since I didn't even have a credit card, it was pretty impossible for me to owe them money.
I got something that looked like a credit card in the mail once (i don't remember if it was just an ad or something else) and he solemnly gave it to me saying, "please be careful with this." that scared me for a moment until I actually looked at it and saw it was nothing.
but, long story short, my car title should be getting here soon and i'm glad my father knew how close I was to paying it off...
I am going to have some more bills coming my way now, but that's life.
before daddy had his stroke, I had my car almost paid off... I am glad he was able to know that because he was really worried about my finances.
my family kind of thinks I have the financial skills of a particularly frivolous two-year-old. this isn't true, but I have been in bad situations financially before. and then other things happened that made things look worse.
once, when I was out of town, my father kept getting calls that made him think my car was like five payments behind. actually, that was totally wrong, but he found a very misleading bill (and tore off the part that showed that i'd made three recent payments) and showed that to my sister. she called and chewed me out before it occurred to her that, duh, most of what they sent was missing (i have no idea why my father tore off what he did... I don't think he realized he threw out the most important part) so who could tell anything. but my sister had him convinced he could lose his house. yeah, our house is worth $3000 (eyeroll) which is what my car payoff was at that time. oh, and p.s. ONLY my name was on the loan and my name wasn't on his house, so... worse case scenario: they'd take the CAR.
also, I was getting some telemarketer calls mixed in... I didn't owe those people a cent, but it added to the confusion. it kind of pissed me off about my car loan people because there was no reason for them to harrass him like that.
then there was some credit card telemarketing going on and, as I told him over and over, it wasn't even saying anyone owed them money. it was trying to get us to apply for their card. but since I didn't even have a credit card, it was pretty impossible for me to owe them money.
I got something that looked like a credit card in the mail once (i don't remember if it was just an ad or something else) and he solemnly gave it to me saying, "please be careful with this." that scared me for a moment until I actually looked at it and saw it was nothing.
but, long story short, my car title should be getting here soon and i'm glad my father knew how close I was to paying it off...
I am going to have some more bills coming my way now, but that's life.
projecting
well, courtney love has taken to her poor abused computer (pda, netbook, what have you) to let us know britney spears is a sex slave to her molestor father and courtney's not gonna stand for it! she's not too clear on how she's going to stop it, but whatever.
sometimes I think courtney gets britney confused with herself. because her britney posts come out of left field like the "strapped to a gurney" rant. just all of a sudden (it seems to me, but then I do not EVER go to any of her pages), she's gotta talk about britbrt.
people are all taking this seriously. well, it could be true. courtney actually is not stupid. but she does lie A LOT.
I don't know if she even knows britney. for some reason, I just can't see those two hanging out even if they do have some similar interests.
meanwhile, the unfortunate dj qualls apparently hooked up with courtney. people, leave her alone. good grief. but then again, i'm sure he was no match for her feminine wiles. although I am a bit surprised she chose him, but it was thanksgiving. most people were too busy eating.
just to terrify myself further, I looked up courtney on who's date who (i know it should be "whom"). here's who they list (note, apologies to any guys who do not belong on this list):
fred durst (er... courtney?), he's a leo!
ian wagner
jeff buckley, a scorpio!
russell brand, gemini
ted nugent (in 1976?! wtf? courtney was 12 then!), sagittarius
james moreland (first husband, a musician, who is now scared of her. took out an ad to try to warn kurt about her)
billy corgan (her especial pet), pisces
kurt cobain (second husband), pisces
edward norton, leo
scott weiland, scorpio
trent reznor, taurus
jim barber
howard stern (the dj, not that dude who married anna nicole), capricorn
julien casablancas, leo
steve coogan, libra
jamie burke
that's the website list... I don't know the significance of everyone's signs. cl is a cancer BTW.
I know this is not everyone. in fact, some of these guys... o.k., I am hoping the ted nugent thing is wrong, but probably not. what a perv. I have seen a picture of cl when she was around that age, she did not look like a grown woman.
i've heard evan dando got to spend some time with cl and her special teddy bear (sick!).
I have no idea why i'm talking about this... oh yeah, of course she knows stuff, but you can never trust her. never.
sometimes I think courtney gets britney confused with herself. because her britney posts come out of left field like the "strapped to a gurney" rant. just all of a sudden (it seems to me, but then I do not EVER go to any of her pages), she's gotta talk about britbrt.
people are all taking this seriously. well, it could be true. courtney actually is not stupid. but she does lie A LOT.
I don't know if she even knows britney. for some reason, I just can't see those two hanging out even if they do have some similar interests.
meanwhile, the unfortunate dj qualls apparently hooked up with courtney. people, leave her alone. good grief. but then again, i'm sure he was no match for her feminine wiles. although I am a bit surprised she chose him, but it was thanksgiving. most people were too busy eating.
just to terrify myself further, I looked up courtney on who's date who (i know it should be "whom"). here's who they list (note, apologies to any guys who do not belong on this list):
fred durst (er... courtney?), he's a leo!
ian wagner
jeff buckley, a scorpio!
russell brand, gemini
ted nugent (in 1976?! wtf? courtney was 12 then!), sagittarius
james moreland (first husband, a musician, who is now scared of her. took out an ad to try to warn kurt about her)
billy corgan (her especial pet), pisces
kurt cobain (second husband), pisces
edward norton, leo
scott weiland, scorpio
trent reznor, taurus
jim barber
howard stern (the dj, not that dude who married anna nicole), capricorn
julien casablancas, leo
steve coogan, libra
jamie burke
that's the website list... I don't know the significance of everyone's signs. cl is a cancer BTW.
I know this is not everyone. in fact, some of these guys... o.k., I am hoping the ted nugent thing is wrong, but probably not. what a perv. I have seen a picture of cl when she was around that age, she did not look like a grown woman.
i've heard evan dando got to spend some time with cl and her special teddy bear (sick!).
I have no idea why i'm talking about this... oh yeah, of course she knows stuff, but you can never trust her. never.
negative me
my sister was here yesterday and things were much better.
my brother was around thanksgiving and the day after and got all pissy and told me "there's a lot of negative noise coming off of you."
no one else was at all upset about anything I was saying. I was talking about buying a cd (investment vehicle). and I wanted other people's opinions.
not half listening this pissed him off and he decided I was ungrateful and stomped out. he couldn't even stay for dinner which was about 30 seconds from being served.
the day before that, I got lectured on praying my pain away and if i'd just believe in the LORD all would be perfect. this is basically saying to me my parents weren't good enough to live or I didn't pray for them hard enough and I am not wanting to hear that.
be a little grateful. break my heart.
my brother was around thanksgiving and the day after and got all pissy and told me "there's a lot of negative noise coming off of you."
no one else was at all upset about anything I was saying. I was talking about buying a cd (investment vehicle). and I wanted other people's opinions.
not half listening this pissed him off and he decided I was ungrateful and stomped out. he couldn't even stay for dinner which was about 30 seconds from being served.
the day before that, I got lectured on praying my pain away and if i'd just believe in the LORD all would be perfect. this is basically saying to me my parents weren't good enough to live or I didn't pray for them hard enough and I am not wanting to hear that.
be a little grateful. break my heart.
Thursday, November 26, 2009
political thanksgiving
I just heard a woman giving thanksgiving tips. it involved place cards. how many people use place cards for their family thanksgiving? wth?
she advised separating people based on political views because what if someone wanted to discuss abortion. hello, I don't want to hear about any medical procedures during a meal. at that point, someone should just smack the person on the back of the head. I mean, gross. let's talk about gangrene! let's talk about colon cancer! wtf?
she advised separating people based on political views because what if someone wanted to discuss abortion. hello, I don't want to hear about any medical procedures during a meal. at that point, someone should just smack the person on the back of the head. I mean, gross. let's talk about gangrene! let's talk about colon cancer! wtf?
life sucks
my sister and brother were here today. I have two sisters and one brother. I am way younger than them. we aren't even of the same generation. they are baby boomers and I AM NOT.
my sisters cannot fucking enter a house I live in or see me without fucking insulting me. I am so sick of it. I have bit my tongue all these years because of so many reasons. they don't even fucking have a clue. they don't get how much I have tried to be nice. all I fucking want is for my own goddam family not to hate me and insult me and yell at me and make me feel like if I would just kill my loser ass self thee whole goddam world would be better.
they say they love me, but then they do this shit. I try so hard to be nice and it blows up in my face and then it gets to be my fault and it's all hedgehog dilemma because I do get bitchy and defensive.
to be fair, sometimes they do nice things but never, never, never can it just be that. never can I feel like I deserve anyone to give a fucking shit about me. it's always got some guilt attached.
we had to go through some of daddy's stuff. so as if that wasn't fucking bad enough.
then my sister is all "call (other sister) and tell her how mean I am and it will all be o.k." now they talk to each other EVERY FUCKING DAY and I know for a fact I am a huge subject of discussion. I talk to them about every two weeks. I am getting chewed out about half the timen but yes, they run back and forth and tattle even when I BARELY say anything.
I fucking hate this. I hate it.
I had a dream after I was finally left in peace where my sister was being a total bitch and I was trying to find something she would like and I was breaking things and crying trying to do this (this is a dream not real life). then she called me crazy and I don't remember except I started crying that I wanted to die and daddy was tell me "no! you can't do that" (i guess I was going to kill myself in the dream, I don't remember having anything that could do that, but it's a dream, so who knows).
then my other sister made us all go to the fucking bank without the key to the safety deposit box. no one would fucking listen to me that we needed it and my other sister took both keys (the bank wouldn't let me into it if I had 12 keys anyway). OF COURSE, the teller told them the same thing.
oh, but that was o.k. "now we know." if I had done that it would have been because I am crazy and because I "can't do the simplest things" and "can't manage money." doesn't every damn body know you need a fucking key to get into what daddy always called "the lock box."
there was a fucking thing about mortgages there and I joked about buying a house "with confidence." and I got a lecture like I really was going to suddenly out of goddam nowhere buy a fucking house. I mean wth? my sister was barging around the bank and my brother said "patience is a virtue" so I said "you can buy a home with confidence" (and pointed at the sign). wth? it's just a fucking joke. one of the goddam sample house payments is $1000/month. I KNOW I don't have that. years ago, when I had a good job, I considered buying a condo (i lived in a city then) and I couldn't even really afford that THEN. I haven't seriously considered buying property since. unless they mean THIS house which, yeah, it'd be great to own it, I guess. and, in theory, I only have to buy 3/4ths on it because I am part owner... but...
I don't feel like it's mine. I haven't since I was a little bitty girl and lived here with just mama and daddy. but I didn't know any better back then.
the other day, my sister (not the one who was here today) wanted to throw away a PIECE OF PAPER and I didn't want her to (it was something of daddy's) and she actually yelled at me "it's MY HOUSE TOO!!" wth? wth? it's not 12 goddam pink flamingos on the year it's a PIECE OF PAPER!!! AND I AM THE ONLY ONE LIVING HERE AND SEEING IT.
then she went thru the desk and threw out "junk mail" (her bitchy ass opinion) one item was the current schwan's book so I don't know wth else went out the door on her whim. it's long gone now.
I have finally hid one item that belonged to me that she picked up and pawed through every time she came here. I had put one thing in my father's room and my sister said "gross, what's THAT?" it was just some lip balm. but I said that because, for some reason, they think i've moved a million things into daddy's room. why would I do that? i'm not retarded. I know we have to go through everything.
she seemed to sort of randomly getting rid of stuff, so who knows what else is gone. it's too late now.
she grabbed some socks and was bitching they were "all balled up" well, they didn't used to be, but every time someone comes here they claw through daddy's stuff and I got sick of fixing it afterward. especially after daddy died. some of the socks were old and worn, but there were also new ones mixed in. they were all just either navy or black because duh, they belong to a man.
anyway, I guess if you have kids unless all you have is stuff easily divisible (like money) or you just have one kid.... don't do the whole "divide everything between my children" will. it stinks because there's only one way to divide somethings.
and we get along to a degree because it's not like my father was extrmely rich, so... but I think they found out from the insurance company that it's cheaper to insure and occupied house than an empty one, so for now I have a place to live. maybe for longer. I really don't know. daddy wanted me to be able to live here as long as I needed to, but... it's not like he's here to yell at all of us to behave ourselves.
sorry about this... but I haven't given any family members my url and they don't know I am shampoo.
my sisters cannot fucking enter a house I live in or see me without fucking insulting me. I am so sick of it. I have bit my tongue all these years because of so many reasons. they don't even fucking have a clue. they don't get how much I have tried to be nice. all I fucking want is for my own goddam family not to hate me and insult me and yell at me and make me feel like if I would just kill my loser ass self thee whole goddam world would be better.
they say they love me, but then they do this shit. I try so hard to be nice and it blows up in my face and then it gets to be my fault and it's all hedgehog dilemma because I do get bitchy and defensive.
to be fair, sometimes they do nice things but never, never, never can it just be that. never can I feel like I deserve anyone to give a fucking shit about me. it's always got some guilt attached.
we had to go through some of daddy's stuff. so as if that wasn't fucking bad enough.
then my sister is all "call (other sister) and tell her how mean I am and it will all be o.k." now they talk to each other EVERY FUCKING DAY and I know for a fact I am a huge subject of discussion. I talk to them about every two weeks. I am getting chewed out about half the timen but yes, they run back and forth and tattle even when I BARELY say anything.
I fucking hate this. I hate it.
I had a dream after I was finally left in peace where my sister was being a total bitch and I was trying to find something she would like and I was breaking things and crying trying to do this (this is a dream not real life). then she called me crazy and I don't remember except I started crying that I wanted to die and daddy was tell me "no! you can't do that" (i guess I was going to kill myself in the dream, I don't remember having anything that could do that, but it's a dream, so who knows).
then my other sister made us all go to the fucking bank without the key to the safety deposit box. no one would fucking listen to me that we needed it and my other sister took both keys (the bank wouldn't let me into it if I had 12 keys anyway). OF COURSE, the teller told them the same thing.
oh, but that was o.k. "now we know." if I had done that it would have been because I am crazy and because I "can't do the simplest things" and "can't manage money." doesn't every damn body know you need a fucking key to get into what daddy always called "the lock box."
there was a fucking thing about mortgages there and I joked about buying a house "with confidence." and I got a lecture like I really was going to suddenly out of goddam nowhere buy a fucking house. I mean wth? my sister was barging around the bank and my brother said "patience is a virtue" so I said "you can buy a home with confidence" (and pointed at the sign). wth? it's just a fucking joke. one of the goddam sample house payments is $1000/month. I KNOW I don't have that. years ago, when I had a good job, I considered buying a condo (i lived in a city then) and I couldn't even really afford that THEN. I haven't seriously considered buying property since. unless they mean THIS house which, yeah, it'd be great to own it, I guess. and, in theory, I only have to buy 3/4ths on it because I am part owner... but...
I don't feel like it's mine. I haven't since I was a little bitty girl and lived here with just mama and daddy. but I didn't know any better back then.
the other day, my sister (not the one who was here today) wanted to throw away a PIECE OF PAPER and I didn't want her to (it was something of daddy's) and she actually yelled at me "it's MY HOUSE TOO!!" wth? wth? it's not 12 goddam pink flamingos on the year it's a PIECE OF PAPER!!! AND I AM THE ONLY ONE LIVING HERE AND SEEING IT.
then she went thru the desk and threw out "junk mail" (her bitchy ass opinion) one item was the current schwan's book so I don't know wth else went out the door on her whim. it's long gone now.
I have finally hid one item that belonged to me that she picked up and pawed through every time she came here. I had put one thing in my father's room and my sister said "gross, what's THAT?" it was just some lip balm. but I said that because, for some reason, they think i've moved a million things into daddy's room. why would I do that? i'm not retarded. I know we have to go through everything.
she seemed to sort of randomly getting rid of stuff, so who knows what else is gone. it's too late now.
she grabbed some socks and was bitching they were "all balled up" well, they didn't used to be, but every time someone comes here they claw through daddy's stuff and I got sick of fixing it afterward. especially after daddy died. some of the socks were old and worn, but there were also new ones mixed in. they were all just either navy or black because duh, they belong to a man.
anyway, I guess if you have kids unless all you have is stuff easily divisible (like money) or you just have one kid.... don't do the whole "divide everything between my children" will. it stinks because there's only one way to divide somethings.
and we get along to a degree because it's not like my father was extrmely rich, so... but I think they found out from the insurance company that it's cheaper to insure and occupied house than an empty one, so for now I have a place to live. maybe for longer. I really don't know. daddy wanted me to be able to live here as long as I needed to, but... it's not like he's here to yell at all of us to behave ourselves.
sorry about this... but I haven't given any family members my url and they don't know I am shampoo.
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
kurt cobain & Mind Kontrolle
poor kurt. now people are thinking he was a slave to the agency. I am not one of those people... or at least, i'll say overall no though there seems to be a time period (during his relationship with the horrid skank courtney love) where... possibly, to an extent. but if that's true, it appears he broke free of it before he was murdered.
oh yeah... he was murdered. check justiceforkurt.com for details. thebandinsanity.com has also done a few articles as well. the shampoo listed there is me. I was answering some questions raised the person who wrote one of their articles had. they decided to post it as an article.
there are many places online with information including tapes made by the private investigator courtney hired to (supposedly) find kurt. but not really, of course. because, boy, would kurt have been surprised to find out he was missing! he was living in his own house. I mean, wow, who'd think to look there? um, everybody did and skank kept sending them on wild goose chases.
I really don't know if courtney was working for anyone but herself. I think it is possible (based on things she and people who know her have said), but I don't know who (or what) it is or may have been.
mind control will be called "mk" to save me typing it out.
obviously, there is absolutely no way to know for sure if kurt was mk'd. even if every member of (or formerly with) the agency swore he was not, we still wouldn't know.
IF his body still existed, it might be possible to determine if he was abused in certain ways (i don't know...), but he was cremated with an amazing, mind-boggling, suspicion-inducing quickness and the skank claims someone "stole" what was left of his ashes (sigh, poor kurt, I hope whoever it was respectfully BURIED them).
mk is from a cia project called mkultra. it is a real thing that was brought before congress in the late 70s. a lot of people say the project continued either by a different agency or just under a different name (i don't know).
another important cia project to mkultra is project paperclip (which the cia admitted the true nature of in the early 90s). formerly, they'd just claimed to get nazi rocket scientists. now we know they got other types of scientists as well as high-ranking members of the nazi intelligence network (for their information on the u.s.s.r. supposedly). we weren't the only ones at nazi career day, so i'll give you a moment... yeah, it sucks.
all of this is not secret. the cia has admitted to various things over the years... sometimes because they didn't have any reason to continue keeping it secret, sometimes because they got caught... lots of reasons I don't know about.
if you want to know some of their past projects, they have a website. the goal of the site is to present the agency in a good light, but still. it'll give you some background.
various conspiracy sites have taken the mkultra thing and run with it. whole lists of celebrities are mk'd and all sorts of organizations have joined the party.
I don't know how (or if) this works in reality, but basically people are mk'd via various tortures... electroshock, physical pain, rape, food deprivation, water deprivation, sensory deprivation, isolation, systemic use of drug-induced states, etc. this causes the person to "disassociate" to the point they will form disassociative identity disorder (once called multiple personality disorder) which is a psychosis.
the trick in mk (allegedly) is they drive them crazy in such a specific way that they can then be "programmed" with various functions. some of these only come out when specifically called up by a "handler."
now, it may be possible to do this with some folks, but I would guess a lot of people will just go plain old ordinary crazy (and again, I mean psychotic, as in someone who will find if difficult to impossible to function in society.. being homeless and eating handouts might be too challenging for them). but I really don't know.
what I DO know is brainwashing (as it used to be called) is possible, but it requires unlimited access to a person while greatly restricting their access to people who aren't part of your agenda. some people are more susceptible than others, although drug use can make a person (temporarily) more malleable. but, this doesn't lead to anything as complicated as what people are talking about with mkultra. it will provide you with a person who willingly becomes one of the group and will take orders from the leader. of course, people talking about mk are usually talking about people whose "training" began in very early childhood (although, some adults are mk'd just through drugs, electroshock, etc.), so it's easy to imagine that systematically working with someone from age 2 would lead to more extreme results. but could that person function in society?
kurt has talked about a time after he got married to the skank (i think he actually called her "courtney") when he basically sat around the house using heroin. then, surprisingly (sarcasm), he got tired of this lifeplan and started to cut back on the narcotics and ... by what many people have said courtney encouraged kurt to use heroin as a way to make him more dependent on her. I don't think she actually introduced him to heroin. she certainly did not introduce him to narcotics.
he had used morphine before (he had a prescription) due to extreme stomach pain. his stomach pain was different from most people's and he really did need some heavy duty pain medication to be able to eat, etc.
I used to believe that perhaps this relentless pain caused him to commit suicide, but then I saw an interview where he talks about FINALLY being diagnosed and prescribed medication (a narcotic).
courtney made sure this medication along with all of kurt's guns were confiscated by police. so, is it any wonder that kurt had a bad attitude about the "intervention" where they threatened to fire him from the label because he was using heroin. courtney knew that without his prescription, kurt would start using heroin again.
wait, what about mk? exactly. he sounds a little ornery for someone who is only acting as per his programmer's orders, doesn't he? there are many witnesses to all of this.
the kurt was mk'd people don't really know much about kurt or his music. they say he was used to create "grunge" and encourage apathy. first, kurt did not come up with the name "grunge." second, listen to nirvana, then listen to some other bands from the same time period, exactly. third, the crap (e.g. poison) that was already popular (holding over from the late 80s) encouraged apathy as well as just plain not thinking.
then we have kurt's death versus michael jackson's death. kurt was reviled, character assassinated, and turned into another person as soon as he couldn't speak for himself. in life, he was not a danger to children or anyone else. michael jackson raped countless little boys. yet, we have tribute upon tribute to michael.
after kurt died, nirvana was over. there have been a couple of things released since then, but no one who was IN nirvana tried to capitalize off of it. a good thing because nirvana got dragged down with kurt's character assassination.
michael's whole family has something planned to use him to advanced their own careers. although possibly not his sisters... if kurt got character assassinated, michael got the opposite and has become an hero.
so, if kurt was mk'd I think it was after he got famous and their goal was to get him to just sit around doing nothing until the public lost interest in him.
because it wasn't kurt's music that made people apathetic. it was the awful way he was treated after he died. they may as well have come on tv and said, "look who's finally dead. well, fuck him and fuck you, too." I honestly have never seen anything like it before or since.
I listened to alternative music years before nirvana, but I really loved them. I thought kurt was funny and sarcastic. his interviews were always interesting and sometimes really funny. I still miss him. he would call people out on their ridiculousness and make fun of himself for his own. it was great.
oh yeah... he was murdered. check justiceforkurt.com for details. thebandinsanity.com has also done a few articles as well. the shampoo listed there is me. I was answering some questions raised the person who wrote one of their articles had. they decided to post it as an article.
there are many places online with information including tapes made by the private investigator courtney hired to (supposedly) find kurt. but not really, of course. because, boy, would kurt have been surprised to find out he was missing! he was living in his own house. I mean, wow, who'd think to look there? um, everybody did and skank kept sending them on wild goose chases.
I really don't know if courtney was working for anyone but herself. I think it is possible (based on things she and people who know her have said), but I don't know who (or what) it is or may have been.
mind control will be called "mk" to save me typing it out.
obviously, there is absolutely no way to know for sure if kurt was mk'd. even if every member of (or formerly with) the agency swore he was not, we still wouldn't know.
IF his body still existed, it might be possible to determine if he was abused in certain ways (i don't know...), but he was cremated with an amazing, mind-boggling, suspicion-inducing quickness and the skank claims someone "stole" what was left of his ashes (sigh, poor kurt, I hope whoever it was respectfully BURIED them).
mk is from a cia project called mkultra. it is a real thing that was brought before congress in the late 70s. a lot of people say the project continued either by a different agency or just under a different name (i don't know).
another important cia project to mkultra is project paperclip (which the cia admitted the true nature of in the early 90s). formerly, they'd just claimed to get nazi rocket scientists. now we know they got other types of scientists as well as high-ranking members of the nazi intelligence network (for their information on the u.s.s.r. supposedly). we weren't the only ones at nazi career day, so i'll give you a moment... yeah, it sucks.
all of this is not secret. the cia has admitted to various things over the years... sometimes because they didn't have any reason to continue keeping it secret, sometimes because they got caught... lots of reasons I don't know about.
if you want to know some of their past projects, they have a website. the goal of the site is to present the agency in a good light, but still. it'll give you some background.
various conspiracy sites have taken the mkultra thing and run with it. whole lists of celebrities are mk'd and all sorts of organizations have joined the party.
I don't know how (or if) this works in reality, but basically people are mk'd via various tortures... electroshock, physical pain, rape, food deprivation, water deprivation, sensory deprivation, isolation, systemic use of drug-induced states, etc. this causes the person to "disassociate" to the point they will form disassociative identity disorder (once called multiple personality disorder) which is a psychosis.
the trick in mk (allegedly) is they drive them crazy in such a specific way that they can then be "programmed" with various functions. some of these only come out when specifically called up by a "handler."
now, it may be possible to do this with some folks, but I would guess a lot of people will just go plain old ordinary crazy (and again, I mean psychotic, as in someone who will find if difficult to impossible to function in society.. being homeless and eating handouts might be too challenging for them). but I really don't know.
what I DO know is brainwashing (as it used to be called) is possible, but it requires unlimited access to a person while greatly restricting their access to people who aren't part of your agenda. some people are more susceptible than others, although drug use can make a person (temporarily) more malleable. but, this doesn't lead to anything as complicated as what people are talking about with mkultra. it will provide you with a person who willingly becomes one of the group and will take orders from the leader. of course, people talking about mk are usually talking about people whose "training" began in very early childhood (although, some adults are mk'd just through drugs, electroshock, etc.), so it's easy to imagine that systematically working with someone from age 2 would lead to more extreme results. but could that person function in society?
kurt has talked about a time after he got married to the skank (i think he actually called her "courtney") when he basically sat around the house using heroin. then, surprisingly (sarcasm), he got tired of this lifeplan and started to cut back on the narcotics and ... by what many people have said courtney encouraged kurt to use heroin as a way to make him more dependent on her. I don't think she actually introduced him to heroin. she certainly did not introduce him to narcotics.
he had used morphine before (he had a prescription) due to extreme stomach pain. his stomach pain was different from most people's and he really did need some heavy duty pain medication to be able to eat, etc.
I used to believe that perhaps this relentless pain caused him to commit suicide, but then I saw an interview where he talks about FINALLY being diagnosed and prescribed medication (a narcotic).
courtney made sure this medication along with all of kurt's guns were confiscated by police. so, is it any wonder that kurt had a bad attitude about the "intervention" where they threatened to fire him from the label because he was using heroin. courtney knew that without his prescription, kurt would start using heroin again.
wait, what about mk? exactly. he sounds a little ornery for someone who is only acting as per his programmer's orders, doesn't he? there are many witnesses to all of this.
the kurt was mk'd people don't really know much about kurt or his music. they say he was used to create "grunge" and encourage apathy. first, kurt did not come up with the name "grunge." second, listen to nirvana, then listen to some other bands from the same time period, exactly. third, the crap (e.g. poison) that was already popular (holding over from the late 80s) encouraged apathy as well as just plain not thinking.
then we have kurt's death versus michael jackson's death. kurt was reviled, character assassinated, and turned into another person as soon as he couldn't speak for himself. in life, he was not a danger to children or anyone else. michael jackson raped countless little boys. yet, we have tribute upon tribute to michael.
after kurt died, nirvana was over. there have been a couple of things released since then, but no one who was IN nirvana tried to capitalize off of it. a good thing because nirvana got dragged down with kurt's character assassination.
michael's whole family has something planned to use him to advanced their own careers. although possibly not his sisters... if kurt got character assassinated, michael got the opposite and has become an hero.
so, if kurt was mk'd I think it was after he got famous and their goal was to get him to just sit around doing nothing until the public lost interest in him.
because it wasn't kurt's music that made people apathetic. it was the awful way he was treated after he died. they may as well have come on tv and said, "look who's finally dead. well, fuck him and fuck you, too." I honestly have never seen anything like it before or since.
I listened to alternative music years before nirvana, but I really loved them. I thought kurt was funny and sarcastic. his interviews were always interesting and sometimes really funny. I still miss him. he would call people out on their ridiculousness and make fun of himself for his own. it was great.
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
shocking pop (snicker)
they are still going on about the adam lambert "controversy." I have two words: dress rehearsal.
I didn't watch the amas because award shows suck. I have seen a snippet from adam's performance. what I see is a LOT of people on stage who would all be falling over each other if they hadn't rehearsed.
so, the tv people knew what adam would do. if they actually had any problem with it, they had a chance to make him change it. since this only occupies a few seconds of his performance, he easily could have made the changes and kept his overall performance.
this got on tv because it was supposed to... granted, with a larger audience everyone may have performed with more enthusiasm, it would still be basically the same thing.
what I saw wasn't very entertaining. it seemed rushed. bleat a few words, pose, bleat, do controversial thing, bleat, pose, controversial thing, etc. the kissing (a "man") was the best part because that means it's over and my ears and eyes are glad.
now, they've dragged lady gaga into it... she gets away with it. blah, blah. who cares? why are people even listening to this crap?
I didn't watch the amas because award shows suck. I have seen a snippet from adam's performance. what I see is a LOT of people on stage who would all be falling over each other if they hadn't rehearsed.
so, the tv people knew what adam would do. if they actually had any problem with it, they had a chance to make him change it. since this only occupies a few seconds of his performance, he easily could have made the changes and kept his overall performance.
this got on tv because it was supposed to... granted, with a larger audience everyone may have performed with more enthusiasm, it would still be basically the same thing.
what I saw wasn't very entertaining. it seemed rushed. bleat a few words, pose, bleat, do controversial thing, bleat, pose, controversial thing, etc. the kissing (a "man") was the best part because that means it's over and my ears and eyes are glad.
now, they've dragged lady gaga into it... she gets away with it. blah, blah. who cares? why are people even listening to this crap?
Sunday, November 22, 2009
shaniya davis, her mom & mario macneill
10-03-09 bradley lockhart left for a job in portland, oregon. he frequently spent time out of town due to his work as a building contractor. in fact, he did not return to fayetteville until shaniya went missing.
about a month before bradley left town, antoinette started calling him and telling him that she'd changed. she had a job, she wasn't using drugs, she wanted to be a mom to shaniya. these fairytales sounded convincing enough over long distance that a week after bradley leaving town, she'd gotten her hands on shaniya.
not only were drugs being done at 1116A sleepy hollow drive, they'd even been sold there. frequent visitor (and boyfriend to brenda davis) mario andrette macneill was a drug dealer.
antoinette and brenda both needed money. antoinette owed mario a drug debt (or so he says) and brenda owed back rent. this isn't an accusation against brenda, but simply to show that antoinette's situation was not the way she'd described it.
antoinette's boyfriend was 30-year-old clarence coe. interestingly, he says he did not really know macneill. does this mean that macneill avoided coe?
coe claims that shaniya called him, "daddy." I don't know that much about coe, so I don't know if he should be believed or not. he also said that he'd never seen shaniya sleeping in the living room. he added, "educated people, figure it out."
the baby antoinette is carrying belongs to coe. he did not live with her.
mario macneill (d.o.b. 4/30/1980) was born under a full moon. the websleuths astrologers say, "self gratification is his all." maybe that was why he was smirking in his mugshot. he knew people all over the world would see it.
the car that the police took 11 bags of evidence from is mario's mitsubishi galant. he owns a total of five cars. he let brenda and antoinette use at least one of these vehicles.
given what macneill did in june 2001, it's surprising he was not in prison. he shot someone in the face, shoulder, and arm. two other people were injured in this shooting. macneill was released from custody to await his trial. about a year later, he's arrested for drug posession. he goes on trial for the triple shooting and the drugs and is given 40-50 months on probation.
it only takes him a couple of months to be arrested again for drug possession. after this, he is sent to prison in october 2003. he's released in may 2006.
he is due to appear in court on 12-02-09. he is currently being held without bond. perhaps macneill will finally be locked away from law-abiding citizens.
about a month before bradley left town, antoinette started calling him and telling him that she'd changed. she had a job, she wasn't using drugs, she wanted to be a mom to shaniya. these fairytales sounded convincing enough over long distance that a week after bradley leaving town, she'd gotten her hands on shaniya.
not only were drugs being done at 1116A sleepy hollow drive, they'd even been sold there. frequent visitor (and boyfriend to brenda davis) mario andrette macneill was a drug dealer.
antoinette and brenda both needed money. antoinette owed mario a drug debt (or so he says) and brenda owed back rent. this isn't an accusation against brenda, but simply to show that antoinette's situation was not the way she'd described it.
antoinette's boyfriend was 30-year-old clarence coe. interestingly, he says he did not really know macneill. does this mean that macneill avoided coe?
coe claims that shaniya called him, "daddy." I don't know that much about coe, so I don't know if he should be believed or not. he also said that he'd never seen shaniya sleeping in the living room. he added, "educated people, figure it out."
the baby antoinette is carrying belongs to coe. he did not live with her.
mario macneill (d.o.b. 4/30/1980) was born under a full moon. the websleuths astrologers say, "self gratification is his all." maybe that was why he was smirking in his mugshot. he knew people all over the world would see it.
the car that the police took 11 bags of evidence from is mario's mitsubishi galant. he owns a total of five cars. he let brenda and antoinette use at least one of these vehicles.
given what macneill did in june 2001, it's surprising he was not in prison. he shot someone in the face, shoulder, and arm. two other people were injured in this shooting. macneill was released from custody to await his trial. about a year later, he's arrested for drug posession. he goes on trial for the triple shooting and the drugs and is given 40-50 months on probation.
it only takes him a couple of months to be arrested again for drug possession. after this, he is sent to prison in october 2003. he's released in may 2006.
he is due to appear in court on 12-02-09. he is currently being held without bond. perhaps macneill will finally be locked away from law-abiding citizens.
Saturday, November 21, 2009
shaniya davis, funeral sunday
shaniya davis's funeral will be sunday 11-22-09 at 3 p.m. services will be at manna church located at 5117 cliffdale road in fayetteville, nc 28314. the family is allowing the public to pay their respects.
a memorial fund has been set up at wachovia bank under the name shaniya nicole davis. the bank is located at 4200 morganton rd. in fayetteville, nc 28314. the phone # is (910) 868-0837.
rest in peace, shaniya.
a memorial fund has been set up at wachovia bank under the name shaniya nicole davis. the bank is located at 4200 morganton rd. in fayetteville, nc 28314. the phone # is (910) 868-0837.
rest in peace, shaniya.
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