well, i missed it

i didn't see the degrassi finale because i was dealing from the after effects of stress from a visit from my brother. yes, that's my family. they can cause mayhem that easily. partly, because they don't really deal with me as a person. i am a problem my parents inflicted upon them.

everything about me has to be analyzed and judged in the most critical possible way. i can't just have personality traits different than them, but then they are baby boomers. that makes them right in their opinions and their opinions are the only ones that count. and their opinion is they do not want to deal with me. they want someone else to take care of me. unfortunately, someone else died. (btw, when i say "take care of me" i don't necessarily mean that literally... just deal with me in whatever way is needed which might be just talking to me now and then.)

anyway, i am pretty upset and this wasn't even a bad visit by my family's standards. they don't feel welcome here (trust, this is b.s., that would NOT stop them). well, every time they come here they yell and lecture and judge and criticize. why the fuck would i want them here. and they tell me over and over IT'S OUR HOUSE TOO!!!! like i don't know that. like that's not rude as fuck to barge into someone's house and scream at them because they put something in the kitchen closet that maybe could also be put in the bathroom closet.

now, because i don't want to throw away everything i own (because everything i own is stupid or crappy or what have you) then i'm a HOARDER. i fucking goddamned hate tlc and all asshole reality shows that have given my siblings more shit to bitch at me about. (btw, no, my house does not look like the hoarders' houses. but one sister is a neat freak and the others have relatives who clean their houses. so, they don't need to see that much clutter.)

my brother was piously talking about when he was young and owned no more than he could wear or carry. yeah, p.s. that was four fucking decades ago. and not even true. i guess he forgets i lived in my parents' house then (he didn't) and i know he still had stuff in his room. i doubt he thinks i can remember back that far because they know i have memory loss for part of my childhood. or they should know. but, it's later... and it's not as severe as it used to be.

they get together and decide how i am and that is how i am, no matter what i do or say or have done. and i know i act worse around them because i tend to respond too much to things i shouldn't. sometimes i do all right, but they know how to push my buttons. which i hate that and it makes me very upset with myself. i guess the memory loss hasn't helped me because for a long time, i did have to take their word for some things. now that i'm getting it back... it's not that they told me the wrong thing just they told me whatever was easiest at the moment to get their point across.

anyway, i think i have some kind of panic disorder or some shit since i like to have passed out after my brother superiored off to be awesome somewhere. i didn't really have any anti-anxiety medicine (which i probably should have such a thing, honestly). so, long story short... i missed my show because i was asleep. i woke up briefly to find that moron sav dressed as elvis and that didn't keep me awake.

here is a fucking photo of the last moments of the show:

all i know is no one died, but eli apparently pissed himself. i guess i can live without seeing that.

maybe she's sailor earth? (now with salt)

only two more days of the comedy that is degrassi and i think the big finale will have to do with adam. oh who is adam? p.s. i've added to the end of the post, original theme restored!

oh, btw, this is jordan todosey. an actress.

well, let's see if we can pick adam out of this photo:

yes, he's the girl with short hair... oh wait, the girl with short hair who is also wearing a cap

o.k., i'll help you: adam, bianca, eli, and in front that's drew adam's brother

disbelief suspended?

thank god he goes to school in canada, eh?

you know, this reminds me of another foreign tv show! sailor moon!

sailor venus is my favorite!

but, this show doesn't really remind me of minako-sama. no one even has a cat, much less TWO cats in a basket. it does remind me of another couple of senshi:

sailor uranus and sailor neptune.

haruka (aka sailor uranus) also employed layering to cleverly disguise herself as a boy

more suspension of disbelief, these two have a "forbidden romance". HOW can anyone care? LOOK AT THEM! are these the two most boring characters in the history of tv? holly j (oh, she's on the left) and sav (the other one). i am SICK of "FORBIDDEN ROMANCES" with sav! this is TWO for him! he sucks.

anyway, here's a quick update of this weirdass season..

adam thinks she is a boy. "between the ears, i'm just like other guys" now, how the fuck would she know that? but, anyway, she's the world's girliest female to male transgender and doesn't even look that boyish compared to her girly ass bff eli. her character's real name is gracie and she randomly went to school for a day as gracie and started burning herself with a hair barette. no, the idea of a happy medium doesn't exist it's either dresses or "i'm a boy" there is no in between. yes, the school goes along with this fuckery.

eli, emo dramaqueen, dramatically tells claire (who he likes, eh, it's ridiculous) he KILLED his girlfriend. good thing he didn't tell someone like shampoo that or he'd be dead. but, claire just gapes at him and he explains that he'd argued with his girlfriend and she rode off on her bike crying and was later hit by a car and killed. hell, maybe that is his fault. he drives a hearse and wears rings. oooh.

claire is going to go out with the enemy of her friends probably being tired of dating other girls when she's not even a lesbian.

they've been working on something with bianca and adam all season so i guess they'll make out and that will explain why she's so desperate to hook up with drew. who knows. they only have her around when they need someone really bitchy. and tough. cuz she's a dancer! i'm not kidding.

fiona has taken to going to degrassi and pursuing a lawsuit against her first real boyfriend (who isn't related to her). holly j is her best friend because holly j is declan's girlfriend. only holly j decided she needed a break and took that break with sav. declan will never find out will he (please let him)? he's only her best friend's brother who is rich and regularly flies places to surprise people. declan and fiona are actually americans (ah ha!), so he probably is one of the few preppies who also carries an uzi (please). basically, SAV MUST DIE. or adam must turn out to be sailor earth. whichever. or both.

tonight and tomorrow and then we'll see who gets shot or stabbed or what have you this season! (yes, that is how they like to end their seasons, they are not right in the head.)

i know i departed from my previous theme, but... oh, wait a minute, fun times.. here we go, here's...

angie jo is a man, baby! (she's dressed as some sort of "naval officer", thank god it's not our navy)

what's she thinking about?

this?

this?

this? (scary)

jaimie and angie and degrassi's twins: "brothers are forever"

the originals, very nicely dressed

declan and fiona coyne, twins from degrassi (landon liboiron and annie clark)

not twins, with their father jon voight

they all get cowboy on us

angie and jaimie with mommy and daddy

flowers are delicious

let's be vampires!

matching outfits

holding hands with dad (i wish this was better quality)

most everyone knows that angie kissed her brother at the academy awards. if you look into this for about two minutes, you will find she kissed him at a lot of different events and photoshoots and just in general. of course, they have brushed off any suggestion that this is anything other than normal affection. everyone who has siblings said, "hmmm...". but, there's really no way to know anything about it besides what we saw and they said... and it's not like they were little kids. so, it kind of faded from memory. maybe younger people don't even know about it. or if they have heard about it, they probably think those of us who were around in the prudish 1990s were very confused and they probably just shook hands or something.

but, the writers of degrassi have not forgotten. in fact, i think they have every interview angie and jaimie have ever done on their pdas for easy access. because i swear... sometimes... but, let's just get into this particular dip into the pool of incestual implications.

so, declan and fiona are the rich kids of a diplomat and have thus moved around "only having each other." people who know them dryly observe that they're routinely mistaken for boyfriend and girlfriend because "they're very close."

fiona is very distant with the mere mortals that attend degrassi (or exist on earth, whatever), so she's let's say "mysterious." and she's just outright odd. then there's her endearing traits like calling things normal high school students eat "peasant food." in other words, she has no friends. except her brother, of course.

even though they both sniff their ponytails at the thought of public school, for some reason declan takes to the place. well, because it's degrassi and everyone who goes there (except fiona, of course) lurves it. maybe it's got something to do with the fact that every teacher gives you 1000 chances to get a good grade and there are millions of free extracurricular activities for "joiners" (this doesn't mean the same thing in canada, or at least i don't think they're talking about construction workers). it's just super terrific. in fact, declan wants to stay there and graduate while fifi wants to take herself back to manhattan. maybe this has something to do with the fact declan has a girlfriend.

unfortunately, for fiona this is a television show. so that means that moving to another country does not get rid of the girlfriend. she packs up and moves as well. hell, she even brings her good friend for the subplot's sake.

anyway, when fiona catches her brother and his girlfriend making out at a party, she decides to prove there's nothing girlfriends can do that she can't do better! happily, the paparazzi, showing resourcefulness beyond anything i ever imagined, get a photo for the newspaper. even the music television channel runs the "twincest" story.

then declan shows up and declares his love for his girlfriend while telling her his sister has been banished to the hamptons (i don't get that part, are they down with the crazy there or what?) since he now sees that she is just not o.k. but, trust, this will not be the end of that because fiona is going to get him back by finding the worst not-related-to-her boyfriend she can find. although, she sort of overdid it because she picked one of those guys that likes to smack his bitch up and, unfortunately, that would be her. so, i figure her brother's reaction to that will completely bizarre.

before this episode aired, i read people carrying on over on some degrassi message board about how "brave" the writers were to do this. the hell you say? what's "brave" about this? is this something a lot of high school kids deal with that we MUST cover? i'm just going to go out on a limb and say no, it's not.

being that i don't have a young and impressionable mind i thought it was pretty hilarious. also, i am enjoying trying to figure out where they got certain aspects of the stories.

i don't know where i got these photos... if you own one and want it removed, just let me know.

"please don't take a picture"

back in the day, note the big cat print

looking forlorn on ugly 70s furniture

ketchup powder? on popcorn? really?

so, teen nick (yes, i know) is playing "every degrassi ever". one episode introduced me to something i had (thankfully) never heard of.. and yes, i am sharing the horror.

manny sez to emma "popcorn with extra ketchup powder."

now, i knew they had ketchup-flavored potato chips, but... i can see how that MIGHT taste all right. they're fried potatoes and ketchup tastes good on french fries. i even read someone saying the powder on the chips mixes with "the salvia in your mouth" to taste like regular chips. er, that sounds SUPER APPETIZING, so i will take that back.

but, who the fuck ever thought, ketchup and corn... those two flavors need to come together? sick and wrong.

and why is canada's ketchup in powder form?