billy

i have lost my beautiful angel. but, i still have billy. he is my silly bunny. he is my good boy... well, he is my cute boy. i love billy. daddy used to call him billy jim idk why.

things are not all right

my brother and sister decided that an entire room was not enough to contain my portfolio materials. not that they bothered to consider what they were before they threw them all away. how i will make up for this, i dont know. so, that was the first thing that happened.

i was thinking of a blog idea then my precious angel bunny got sick. despite over fourteen hundred in vet bills... my baby died. my heart is broken. my precious, beautiful, sweet, browneyed spotted girl was gone.

there have been other things, but these two losses are so difficult for me. angel is fa
r more important than my portfolio, of course. but in both cases i wonder what will i do...

one day i will do the post i was working on... i have not stopped blogging permanently... i never meant to stop at all. thanks for reading

happy easter

i have been suffering from a very bad headache, so I did nothing for easter. however, I can't use that as an excuse. I probably wouldn't have gone to church anyway (long story).

but, easter is a very important holiday to me. so, happy easter to everyone.

love
shampoo

p.s. also happy bday to my pretty bunny girl!

look da bunny!!

i now have an avatar! my first ever! yay!

i love bunnies. <3

love,
shampoo

the christmas bunny

my cute boy got some christmas vegetables! so cute!

I did some more visting today. this has been a really difficult day without daddy. I miss him a lot.

but, my bunny is cute and he cheers me up. what a sweetie!

I hope everyone had a good day.

love,
shampoo

world peace?

now is the time we all ask what we want for christmas or for our new year's wish or whatever it is we do this time of the year. of course, we all know we ought to wish for something for the good of all mankind (humankind, earthkind). but, we usually want something. who can help it?

except, i don't this year. i can't really think of anything i REALLY want. i miss daddy and that's mostly what i can think about. otherwise, i don't know.

i'm sure i will like anything i get, but my siblings aren't likely to get me much anyway, so it's just as well to not get my hopes up in that regard. generally, i get cut out of all of the christmas pictures except the one where we'd all pose with daddy. they kind of had to leave me in there. my father could remember how many kids he had, after all. the reason for this, i guess, is they have kids and i don't. i just have me. and i suppose they figure they've looked at me long enough.

i have already gotten some presents and they were all really nice. i got some nifty new p.j.s that i am currently wearing. they came with a matching blanket, too. how neat is that?

and i got a whole bunch of neat magazines, dvds, and books. so that is super neat and exciting. i'm sure these things will really keep me company this long, cold winter. i haven't spent too much time with these so far, which causes my boyfriend concern. but i am enjoying visiting with everyone. most of the stuff i got were things that you have to fully concentrate upon to enjoy, so i'll look at these more closely when i get home.

most importantly, my bunny boy has a new water bottle!!! oh, he love it so much. he drinks and drinks and drinks. then he licks his sculpture (salt lick), then he drinks some more. he's so adorable. he's also been taking a bath for the last fifteen minutes, so i see some more enjoyment of his water bottle in his future. the bunnies, they are cute.

holiday driving

like everyone else in america, i have somewhere to drive this christmas (granted, some people don't have to go very far). although my reason is a bit different.

i went to the doctor out of town (i went to a specialist) and now i have to get back to where i was.... in order to be in our house without daddy and go to deal with my siblings. i'm not looking forward to this. right now, i am much cozier and my bunny is happily settled in... he's so happy! he has another bunny friend here. oh and the cuteness is almost more than can be born... those bunnies!

but, there will be hell to pay if i miss christmas and i am trying to gather my courage in between feeling dizzy and all that. it's probably just my asthma acting up or i may be getting mildly sick. since i just saw the doctor, i'm not concerned that i have anything terribly serious.

i have to drive through three cities... but it's the smallest one of the bunch that is the greatest pain in the butt. it's got the crappiest roads ever. it's like they paved the interstate back in 1975 and decided that was good enough for the next 50 years or so. every time i drive through there it screws up my car.. i think their crapola interstate may have been why i had a blowout (as in my tire ripped apart) last time. so, i'm dreading that.

every time i mention what a pain it is, people tell me of bigger cities they've driven in.. it's like i drive in two much bigger cities in my drive, but both are easier to get through (once you kind of learn their way of doing things) because they have better roads. and it seems they're set up to handle the traffic better. unfortunately, there is no way to skip this city, so i'll just have to suck it up and drive through. i know their surface streets aren't that much better. it's weird. but it's like two different states are playing chicken with it to see if they can wait each other out into paying for some updating of the road.

at any rate, i have to drive it and soon. so, pray for me. :)

another wonderful life

well, folks, I have a dog, a cat, three cows, one bull, a horse, two ducks, and three chickens. we live on a happy little farm and i'm friends with the local sprites. of course, I am talking about harvest moon for gamecube! yay!

I found out about the coolest cheat. you plug your controller into the 3rd slot and press the z button numerous times. if you have a game cube. you have to be in the regular game, not paused or conversating (fox) and you get maaany cool items. BE SURE AND PUT THINGS YOU WANT TO KEEP ON THE SHELF OR IN THE COOLER as this cheat overwrites your inventory. and try to refrain from making yourself the richest farmer EVAH because after a while the game decides you have no gold and I don't know if you can change its mind. but i'm soldiering on in my "I like bears" outfit and pink shoes.

it's too bad you can't get people to pay you for picking flowers irl. well, hey, some people probably do get paid for that, but they are near more interesting flowers than me.

irl meanwhile, I have to clean this house and deal with my siblings. this is not as fun as feeding imaginary cows, I can tell you. although, real bunnies are the best critters ever! yay, bunnies.

first holiday

halloween was the first holiday without my father. for us halloween was just handing out candy to the kids who came by trick or treating (i know some places don't do that any more, but kids here still do). granted, last year, daddy mostly just sat on the couch while I handled candy distribution, but still.

I did hand out candy last night. I had to knock off early because i'm sick, but I made it through most of the festivities. we didn't have as many kids as usual (we usually have A LOT).

i'm not sure if people have caught on this neighborhood isn't the candy haven it used to be or if some people skipped me on purpose because, well... people know my father's funeral was earlier this month.

there is one happy thing: my super cute black bunny is officially one year older! i'm not sure how old he is... 3 or 4. bunnies always seem young, they're so cute. happy birthday, precious boy. :)